I must occupy myself, and maybe then, I won't think so much. Thinking too much isn't good. Trying to comprehend, taking everything in will only bring you down. Thinking, dissecting, analyzing everything is making me petty. Its impossible to comprehend everything. Perhaps its impossible to understand even just one entity completely... an entitiy such as myself. Where would all this introspective crap get me anyways? Maybe all this looking in will just box me in since I can't seem to look outward.
Yes, I must occupy myself, preferably with something instantly satisfying- even though those things are often vacuous, hollow. What should it be? Food? Religion? Sex?
I can't seem to get enough food lately. Sushi, drumsticks, chocolate mousse cake. Eat eat eat. Its simple; Its universal; as with most things that are pleasurable. eat eat eat. sex sex sex.
just swallow it, susie.
Why should I look down upon the simple pleasures anyways? Why must I appeal to this secret, higher force that so diminishes those things pleasurable? I can't even define what it is. I can't articulate a coherent thought on why I believe I'm superior to the things that are conducive towards simple happiness; those things that may or may not be shallow.
So maybe I should just eat eat eat, sex sex sex, talk talk talk, yak yak yak. Yes, just live in the moment. Don't bother to think too much because it won't get anyone anywhere. Just enjoy the ride. Just swallow it, susie.
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